I apologise for my brief absence from this blog, I haven’t been very good have I? Basically I’ve been a very busy bee, with my head playing all sorts of tricks on me lately. I’ve not really been sleeping so I have gotten quite ill over the past week. I don’t know if it’s all linked but it might be and that sucks. So I’m writing my book. Well, one of the many. This time I want it to be about something close to my heart or subconscious this time. I love writing fiction but with my brain doing its usual and with the recent death of Robin Williams I thought I should put my experience with mental health into words and let people tell their stories too. So I’m starting to write down what happens with me and if you want to get involved please do. I’ve set up an email account a.thousand.tiny.voices@outlook.com and if you have ever experienced mental health disorders first hand, second hand or even if it’s just a story you were once told about mental health disorders it would be massively helpful to me for my book. If you are okay with me possibly publishing your story, under a pseudonym obviously, then I would appreciate you letting me know in the email that you are okay with this. If not, not to worry, it is all research at the least.

I know this is shorter than usual but I don’t want to deter from the information I have given you above.

For now I will leave you with this fact…

1 in 4 people in Britain suffer from some form of mental health disorder. This is mainly anxiety or depression.

It’s okay not to be okay.

Much love

x

That time of year has come once again and is leaving us all quaking in our boots about the prospects of our future. Results day has invoked fear across many a student yet this year seems to be the most important and thus, by default, the most terrifying. We, as a collective mass of A-level students, have had a tough year; with Michael Gove piece by piece destroying the British Educational system, the destruction of January Exams and, if you’re anything like I am, the repeated mental breakdowns over the last year and as results day looms around the corner we sit, most likely vegetating, worrying we won’t make it to the next level.

For those of us lucky enough to have received an unconditional offer many seem to believe that we are not worried or we don’t have the right. To this I say utter codswallop. Yes I wasn’t worried about the actual exams in the end but now I’m about 10 times more scared because I don’t know if I tried my best or just winged it. So I join you in the state of apprehension as we near the end.

To those of us who are not worried you are unbelievably lucky. And to those of us who relate to everything I have previously mentioned then here are some tips to get you ready for the big day and to help you remain calm.

  1. Enjoy the summer, the weather is fab so have some fun, take your mind off of things for a while.
  2. Read if you enjoy it. I find that reading or even watching something on TV or Youtube helps me to escape for a while.
  3. If you feel yourself panicking, breathe. It sounds simple but I know it helps.
  4. Don’t Worry. I know this completely contradicts what I’m saying but if you worry then you’ll just get yourself more worked up. You’ve done the hard work. All that you’ll be getting in August is a piece of paper telling you some letters and some marks and that’s it.

I know it seems like the be-all-end-all but you have to understand that whatever happens, whatever grade you get, you tried your best and no-one can ask you for any more than that. Ever.

In the words of Rosalynn Carter, former First Lady of the United States: ‘You must accept that you might fail; then, if you do your best and still don’t win, at least you can be satisfied that you’ve tried. If you don’t accept failure as a possibility, you don’t set high goals, you don’t branch out, you don’t try – you don’t take the risk.’

So take the risk.